I knew this day was coming… Its happened before. You’ve left and we’ve waited for you to come home, fixed and all better. Our illusions of your recovery hid the distress in your voice and eyes. We ignored the signs and now we are all back to the start. You left the exact same way as before, without saying goodbye. In the next 60 days you will call every now and then, giving us all hope and I will lay awake wondering if youre still fighting, if you’re still alive. I will lay awake wondering if youre going to come back the same person I’ve known for the last 8 years of my life, or if you will come back the old happy person I used to know when I was a young girl. 

Goodbye.